I woke up with this song inside of me this was the refrain:
Holy Spirit breath up my soul
I couldn't stop singing it until I fell back to sleep an hour or so later.
I had this incredible dream that I was praising Jesus with the most incredible believers they all loved Jesus so much they were so free with their praise and worship not in a weird way but in a pure true and real way. They were so in love with Jesus and they flowed with their singing and their love for Jesus. In my dream I heard these wonderful praise and worship songs that I have never heard heard before everyone was so alive with the Holy Spirit.
I remember a time when I had this in my life, and when I walked into a room, or went anywhere I had spiritual presence not spiritual pride but spiritual presence spiritual grace where if someone talked to me or met me they would feel the spiritual love of Yahweh coming off me in peels that would never stop.
This dream I laid in bed thinking about it and the songs kept me thinking about it and I kept signing that song when i woke up and I felt the presence of Christ an easy and light and sweet feeling like i belonged in that feeling peaceful like nothing else not back chilling or tearful but an easy feeling this dream i was in a place it was Saturday afternoon at 330 and i was singing with these other believers i saw people from my job there they were saved and people from willow creek people were reaching across to hold each others hands they used the graphic arts to worship Christ with colors and this dream was unlike any other I have ever had.
I woke up wondering if someone was actually praying for me somewhere. Jesus wants me in fellowship everyday. I should start a church just so I can be in fellowship everyday. the songs I had in this dream they were simple but they were all new. I wish I could remember them. i don't want to wait 30 more years for this. i don't want to wait another day for this. i want this kind of fellowship with other believers it was addictive. these believers were all so in love with Jesus that you could not help but believe you belonged there none of them had pretensions when the singing stopped they all had love continuing to radiate from them and i could feel it and i felt like i belonged even though i had never been there.
And it wasn't like they were a bunch of daisy wavers. they were all regular people whose smiles was bursting with Jesus and they were awash with the Holy Spirit, His presence is everywhere but in this place one could really feel it it was not muted by our sin. I was in the presence of men and women of God and I knew it. They really loved Yahushua. In my dream something was telling me that this was for me.
This was a real place maybe a place that was still to come or a place that could be or a place that existed right now. I am so tired of this world I want to be immersed in fellowship. I just want to be with other believers who really really really believe and love love love Jesus. I want to be with them everyday. I want to live with them everyday. True believers. Fellowship and worshiping Jesus all together loving Him and awash in His Holy Spirit. I want that to be the reality and not the other way around: living in the world awash in the world and then stepping out of the world into fellowship periodically. I want to be immersed in fellowship and then when I step into the world it is having to step our of fellowship into the world. I want to be with Jesus.
Pride: the opposite of pride is not humility it is grace.
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